The Clarity has arose from slummber,and the long path a head is here...
I have so much yet still
to do to and to feel and to achieve...I have much more hope now then I did before...
The fact that I have a choice to be optmistic or be pessimistic,
This is a way to be for me...all I can for my family,
for my friends, and for others that may need to hear that I handled, it the best way I could, and still plugging
along...
It is not that I will not feel sad anymore or grief anymore that is not it...
I'm still griving very deeply, and at any given time I'll start to cry;who's too say for how long some have it for years...
Sometimes it takes time....
sometimes all I want to do is stay inside the and craw away and sleep, and it was all a very bad dream...
But no it was not and it is real, and it is going to leave a mark on your heart, and it will not be removed until
all those in the memoral tombs come out and hear his voice...
Resurrection of life...All our loved ones come back to us;
like Christ our lord promise....
I know that I'm trying, all I can to make it through this process, and try to make it as well as I can
do with what I need to do, and each step I take, makes me feel stronger and happier...
Everyone is going through something; good or bad and it isn't until then when Jehovah steps in to correct it all... then we finally will not be a slave to this world...
It is a hilly path of a road to take, on uncertain land not knowing what is a head of you, but if you do everything you can do Emotionally,Physically,Spiritually then your on the right track, and you can succeed...
I had a rough day at group and it was my turn first to talk,
I could not make it through it without crying...
the most important women that reflecked my life, all died the same time one that brought me to life; one that showed me life,...and made me laugh with life,...
Three of them all very different, yet very important woman too me, and they died on the very same day, one a day before,my grandmother,one my dear friend,day after she was like aunt to me, and other one my own mother... one year a part from those...
~profound~
